While tudou is taking like forever to buffer prisonbreak, i decided to finally get my ass off that couch and look for my cammie's cable. (err yupp, that's my room. atrociously messy). Okays, that's besides the point. Anyways, i'm in quite a state of euphoria, yet at the same time, certain issues cant stop harping at the back of my head, tearing away my esctasy. How many different kinds of emotions can a person experience at any one time, i wonder. 10? 50? 100? Why cant people just experience just one type of emotion at a time? Take things one step at a time, cant we? Dislike complications, duhh.

After several eons, my slow-lao-kok-kok laptop has finally finished uploading the pics for xmas. Unbelievably delighted that circle, jjFamily and teamPhilippines/teamDreams met up for xmas. Totally rawked my xmas, really ;D. Thanks peeps for making me happy on xmas. ;)
kays, let me start with jjfamily's annual xmas dinner at shu's. (since i've not gotten bulk of the photos from daxiong yet to post any pictures for circle's xmas bbq. till next time, i guess)

Event: Annual jjFamily Xmas Dinner/Gathering

Date: 25th December 2007

Time: supposed to be 4.30pm but we only started gorging down the food at 8pm

Proud Host/Venue: it has to be chenlaoshu's house, definitely! (we were so miserable last xmas, hiding in a dark corner of sentosa, trying to avoid the rain and eating our beehoongoreng just cuz kukushu scooted off to aussie)

This year, rebelling from the norm, we had steamboat! (actually the simple reason is cuz everybody else is too lazy to cook) In fact, i prefer steamboat (although i desperately want to cook them my charbeehoon *hahaha*) cuz i feel that it encourages more interaction and bonding.

Decent spread of food huh? We still had 1 whole table of food behind us. Too much food in actual fact but i think the boys managed to finish it up. I was too full and engrossed in peterpan to notice anything.

I so wanna upload the video of andyang's and jinyong's hilarious actings in our charades game but unfortunately, youtube has a size limit and being the IT-idiot that i am, i have totally no idea how to reduce the size of my video.

Other than that, i basically spent my time chasing after andyang to get a picture of his superduper-flabberghasting-mindtwisting-bulging-beer-belly. To my dismay, i failed. But nvm, i will succeed the next time!!

Here comes the cam-whoring-session.

喜 aka happiness

怒 aka anger

哀 aka sorrow/sadness

enchanted!

-courtesy of jinyong- (this is exactly how he acted out enchanted during charades earlier on)

kunnnn~

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Next in line is the projectDreamers..

Event: projectDreamers/teamPhilippines Xmas celebration
Date: 26th December 2007
Time: ehhh 5pm? not sure, i was late. *oops-heehee*
Proud Host/Venue: swi's place @ Ivory Heights (yes, again. 2 nights in a row. How i love ivory heights)

This time, its a potluck dinner! so we could start eating as soon as everyone reached. this is definitely good news to our tummies.

btw, i need to tell you all that the chicken baked rice at Bukit Panjang Plaza tastes interesting and its seriously not too bad. In addition, its cheap! Its only $3.50 for each pack. Alan couldnt really tell me the name of the shop, but through his explanations, i thought it might be BBQexpress? Not sure though. Swi's mom's prawn/veggie salad rawks! (yes, i ate the veggie) Oh yes, there's B&J too! My fav ice cream! Really does remind me of those times in yellowstone and USA. Okay stop! All this thinking about food is calling on to my hunger pangs and making me droooooool. *shucks*

of course, what's xmas without a gift exchange? yayys! I got a fondue set for xmas! (great~ how am i gonnna lose weight!?)

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Netball at JJC always is stressful. Maybe its cuz of Ms choo's prescence. Maybe its cuz of the sch's environment. I dont know. But it sure felt good! shiok ah! Better than playing recreaNetball in NUS. Sure hope that more of these kinds of friendlys could be organised, though i'm pretty sure that i sucked at play just now. Who cares ~ i'm supposed to be nua. errr, okay maybe not. i should start exercising. Looking forward to next week's alumni playouts! kays, i should go for a run everyday in the meantime in hope that i would be able to last longer during next week's playouts. ={

Feeling old. Can't believe its been 4 years since i've graduated from jj. Can't believe so much have changed. Well, i guess this is the way the world works. The Earth never stops spinning, so people should never stay constant too? But i wanna stay as it as! I dont wanna change.. In fact, i wanna go back and stay in the past. *blehh* i just need to whine. *ignoreme* I guess i should start learning the rules of change otherwise there would be inevitable experiences of hurt on my side. Its nobody's fault, maybe. If i have to point a finger, it might just be life. I read from a book, that life is just so mind-whirling. It keeps you on a spiral slide that never ends. I guess i should stop being 18+ and move on...i'll try..

*beware! this is a freaking long post! yes, i really mean freaking longggggg*

i'm back from the flies/cockcroaches/lizards/weird-unidentified-flying-insects-infested dumpside in ErapCity/Payatas/the Philippines!!!!

so glad to be back on my comfortable bed.

with my abundant flow of drinking water.

ever-flowing stream of water for showering (no more rationing!!!! there's finally water after 10pm!!!!) and toilets with flushing systems! (god bless the one who invented this miraculous creation!)

no more chickens crowing in the middle of the night! (well, okay. i miss them a lil though. feels lil weird without their irritating noise)

no more singing freaking early in the morning!

no more RnB/partying music in the middle of the night.

no more waking up to the sound of snores. hahahha

no more furious sprays of insect repellent everywhere, everynight and day.

no more waking up to the sun baking me in my sleeping bag.

no more gross cockcroaches and unidentified insects flying out from nowhere.

no more cockcroaches flying out of jieying's jeans. hahahah =X

but there's also no more happy faces of the kids shouting out your name from all directions.

no more happy children appreciating every little thing you do.

no more kids tugging and pulling your shirt and shorts so that you will take a picture with them.

no more kids pouncing up on you behind your back and hugging you.

no more nice filipino neighbours showing you around their houses, with cute lil rocky and roseann proudly showing you every single thing they have. (awwww i miss them so much!)

i really have to thank janice and the team of project dreamers for making this trip possible and so meaningful, enjoyable and memorable. And i'm really glad that i decided to join this team though i was alone. Honestly speaking, I didnt have much expectations to begin with before i went for this trip. All i thought of was to spread some joy to the kids there cuz all along i had imagined that they were living in extremely bad conditions and were pitiful souls there. The kids there dont even possess a certificate of birth! But, during this trip, i realised i was that pitiful soul. The people there enjoyed life and were doing things to make themselves happy everyday (at least its what its seems). Every morning, kids will be running all over the place coupled with loads of laughter. While neighbours will congregate with their children and sit around along the road chatting. I feel sorry for Beejay though, this girl whose father ran away, abandoning his wife and daughter. Beejay now stays with one of the neighbour's family alone since her mother had to work thus she only sees her mom once a week. I just hope that she's less sensible so that she wont realise the cold hard truth of her staying with the neighbour alone. btw, she extremely pretty! she looks like a hawaian!! There's one family i know who just gave birth to a few months old baby who took in another couple and their children cuz the latter had no place to stay. FYI, this family's house is miserably small and pathetic. Let's see..what would a typical singaporean respond? "Go stay in hotel lah! i know of cheap cheap hotel. HOtel 81 super cheap! you can stay there!"

I think that its not so much of the inborn nature of singaporeans to be egocentric and to be cold and unfeeling towards others. But its more of being forced into this situation by the setting we are in. Because we're so self-sufficient and self-contented in our own little HDB/Condo unit that we do not see the need or want to get out of our comfort zone to interact with our neighbours. So much for URA and the GOvernment trying all they can to create identity and belongingness to their community. I think one wouldnt even miss as much the days in their old homes/their neighbours should they be able to move house.

Enough of that, I would like to express my utmost admiration for the teachers teaching in Paaralang Pantao. They, who gave their self-less dedication and tireless teachings to the kids and also residents in Erap City and Payatas. I tried asking myself whether i could give up everything to stay in the dumpside area just to provide the kids there with some education. I realised my answer was quite immediate and it was no. /shame on myself. *pui* One major disadvantage is that i do not know tagalog, otherwise i guess i would be able to know more of their thoughts and also allow them to know more of mine. I can still totally remember Michael Anthony, this student of mine, squatting infront of the green bean seeds and tugging my shirt speaking to me in tons and tons of tagalog which i understand none of the sentences. Not to forget his pair of doggy-eyes looking up at me. After a while, i got Cassy to translate a part of lil part of what he said to me. At that point in time when Cassy told me what Michael said, i couldnt control my emotions no more. tears immediately filled my eyes and since my eyes are small, they cant contain those tears. it was quite an embarrassing sight. but anyways, Michael was asking me whether i would leave him once the beans grow up and he asked for more seeds so that the process will be longer. (ok, i'm feeling damn emo-nemo even now. *rahhhs*) this made me realise how shallow, brief and useless this visit of ours really is. I'm feeling quite frustrated with myself now cuz i cant think of what else i could actually do for them. (other than satisfying our own selfish desires *rahhhhs-pui-grrrrrr*)

The kids there really respect the school alot. they cleaned themselves well and wore their best clothes for school. There's an incident whereby i couldnt recognise my student, Ronnie, when he was out of school, after class time. He was in tatters and rags. I totally didnt recognise him until he told me his name. And yes, i was quite embarrassed at myself. So i'm really glad that Teacher Baby's mom set up Paaralang Pantao. Its a really great cost and sacrifice but also quite a reward i guess. Again, i need to emphasise. I really have to take my hat off to her and the self-less teachers in Paaralang Pantao. We seem so small beside them. During the trip, i kept asking myself. What do i intend to give? What have i done? I realised i have done nothing. Nothing worth mentioning, in my opinion. In actual fact, i seriously reckon that i took alot more than i gave. They taught me that happiness and laughter could be so damn easy. They taught me that love lingers in the air. They made me feel so loved and i totally didnt feel a tinge of loneliness at all even though i was indeed a stranger in a strange land. strangely beautiful land. ;)

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this is so damn funny! Video about Hot gays and Abercrombie & Fitch. I love their shop and clothes though. especially their poster models. totally infatuated with the poster guy with wavy hair in San Fransico! heeee~

super duper looooooong picture post ;D

(cuz i'm just too lazy to choose the pictures *hoho*)

xmas lights!!

tis the season to be jolly! farlalalalallalalala~

come some snow yo!!

huge xmas tree @ Cathay

oh yah! this guy, who was helping us take photos, suddenly asked us whether 2 guys wearing the same shirt is gayish. *duhh* guess he had been worry about it the entire day. i didnt even notice both him and his fren were wearing the same shirt.

*muacks*

yu . ser. me

*hahahha* ermss we were trying to do some cool model poses, but errrrr..... forget it haha

ah yuuuuuu*

went to ALps Cafe to celeb ser's bdae.

its a pretty nice chill-out place. nice light, nice and comfy chairs, nice music and its not too crowded. they even have a section which is a literally a chilling place for peeps to chill. i forgot how cold it is already. 10 degrees? cant remember. Oh yah! the main course is not bad too. ser tried the Lamb Shack and it's pretty good.

han ordered the beef steak. hmmm the taste is not too bad. but the steak is almost un-chewable. i had to resort to swallowing the whole piece -_-"

well, for me, i had the cheese fries. and its r e a l l y GOOOD!!! ;D the cheese reminds me of the cheesesticks at Brewerkz, which btw is damn d e l i c i o u s tooooo!! yayyyyss! i so love good food! ;))))

my lovely girls* ;D

cam-whoring starts*

okay, my camera skills sucks! =X

the bus we were on broke down suddenly. well, the bus didnt exactly break down. according to han, the bus driver noticed smoke coming out from the hind of the bus hence he decided to stop in case the bus caught fire halfway or something. luckily it wasnt the last bus.

here's han with her complimentary ticket stuck in the middle of nowhere in the middle of the night.

the bdae girl

Happy 22nd Ser*

snip . snip . snip

1, 2, 3

clumsily treading on a tight rope right at that dizzy edge

a smile on that familiar face i no longer knew

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Booooooo! my potential tuition assignment (which i was all prepared to go, like 4hrs later) backed out on me. there goes my $$$$$ and my shopping fantasy and my driving lessons and my diving trip and my wala chillouts and my new trackshoes and my 2gb zen stone plus and my.......my...and...my...and...and....and.... okay, i doubt my miserable tuition pay will be able to sustain all of these but at least its some form of income kays. *bleah*

Hiro Nakamura is sooo cute! i love Heroes! :D

Hiro : give me ride? *pohh pohh*

//random*

okays i've got no life! *rahhhs*

hate thesis.

hate myself for not doing thesis yet feeling uneasy all over it.

hate myself for not being able to enjoy in peace cuz of that uneasiness.

hate my scars that are hurting so badly these days! someone pls assure me that its normal for scars to hurt. and that its perfectly fine if your scars feels as if a thousand needles are piercing through it.

i so need to blog about this! *hahaha*


#1.
girl went into a shop and saw a pretty shoe.

girl: "wow~ nice shoe. i think i should try it on!"

Therefore girl went on to try that shoe on. Just when she was happily trying the shoe on.....

lady, with h o r r i f i e d written all over her face, walked up to her with only one shoe on her foot and said: "excuse me, thats my shoe!"


#2.
After that embarrassing incident, the girl fled out of the shop and went into another shop.
Fascinated by the cute rubic cube, she went closer to meddle with it. Suddenly, she noticed a NETS machine beside the rubic cube.

girl: "i like this too! (referring to the NETS machine beside the rubic cube) How much is it?"

girl's friend, who's totally embarrassed by her and trying hard to contain her laughter at the same time, distanced herself away from girl at the fastest speed she could muster.

so who do you think this girl is?

Someone stole my Saturdays.

Saturday aint Saturday no more.

boooo.

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got inspired by my one of my cousin's post, thus i began googling some japanese innovations. And its still as bizzare. Wonder how the japanese can think of such weird ideas. but i really should admit that they are indeed an eye-opener. 0_0 (didnt want to post the same pictures as my cousin so if you're interested, you could check out this. i swear this is the ideal past time for those miserable broke peeps. yeah and i'm one of those miserable peeps. i neeeeeed to work!)

who said only mothers could breast feed? now the guys should take over some of the responsibilities.

i should have got this for my ashleyyy since he's always rolling and sliding around on the floor when he was much younger. *hoho* damn cute luh!

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oh crap! i was diligently searching for online journals wrt my thesis when this onlinevintageshopping website popped out from nowhere! i ended up online/window shopping againnnnn. this is a calling from god. *smirks* even journal sourcing can produce onlineshoppingurl results. this is fate! *heee* Therefore, i shall continue! :D

p/s. mommy is addicted to Songju-oppa. already 5am and she's still sitting upright, eyes glued to the television screen.